I knew early on in Slurpee’s pregnancy that no matter what happened she would be my last. Pregnancy is too stressful for me mentally and physically. We talked about and decided that if I had a c-section I would get my tubes tied. In hind sight that’s what I should have done instead of the labor and delivery I did have. Anyway, it’s too late to redo that now.

Neely promised that if I didn’t have a c-section he would get things taken care of on his end. It’s been four months and I’m still waiting. I was late this month and almost stressed myself to death about it. No worries though, I started today.

Last night I saw a woman holding a teeny baby. Slurpee isn’t that big so teeny has to be relative. It looked like the baby was only a couple of weeks old. It made me yearn for another one. Babies just grow up too quick.

I was thinking this morning about getting my tubes tied. That would make it definite that we would have no more children. (I know. Unless we adopted.) I know that my body can only handle so much and I know my nerves could never handle another pregnancy. I think I am just grieving the close of that part of my life.

What would you do? If you were still yearning to have more children would you get things fixed so it wouldn’t happen? Would you do it knowing the problems you have while being pregnant?